Beti says:
Mujhe itna pyar na do baba ..
Kal jane mujhe naseeb na ho..
Ye jo matha chuma karte ho ..
Kal is per shikan ajeeb na ho..
Mein jab bhi roti hun baba,
Tum ansu poncha karte ho..
Mujhe itni dur na bhejana,
Mein roun aur tum kareeb na ho…
Waiting
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I plead and I wept for a clue to my fate
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”
“Wait? You say wait?”, my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!”
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate,
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a ‘ go-ahead’ sign.
Or even a ‘ no’ to which I’ll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need to but ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So I’m waiting. For what?”
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine.
And He tenderly said “I could give you a sign.”
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause the mountains to run.
I could give you all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.
You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
You’d never experience the fullness of love,
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond just getting what you ask,
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You’d never know should your pain quickly flee,
Wait. It means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But oh, what a loss, if I lost what I’m doing in you.
So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me.
And though often My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still “WAIT”
Yes, I am still waiting.
But wish to know the period of “WAIT”
I don’t contemplate the future
I can’t recollect the past
Lost in the land of limbo
In a time that may not last
The days now pass before me
In an alternating blur
Confusion reigns within me
For a past that’s lost somewhere
I know I am, for I exist
The photographs don’t lie
Pictures of a life now lost
But I don’t remember why
I see a new life every hour
In a place that’s not the same
No hint of recognition
For turmoil is to blame
I write these words upon this page
For others now to see
But don’t ask me if I wrote them
As I can’t remember me.
No matter what happened
Between me and you
You were always there
And showed me our love was true
I made you seem perfect
But you did hurt me before
I never told anyone
About that time you broke my heart
But no matter what you did
I always did forgive
I still believe in your loving words
That took away all my pain and hurt
Three years, five months
We were engaged
Even if I was young
For the future we could wait
So many times we lost our place
But it’s hard to be together
When we’re miles away
So maybe it was fate
Many nights I cried
And got on my knees
Making sure God listened
That I needed you next to me
Today I still love you
More than I ever did
But I guess the love you had
For me took a scary twist
I guess you found another
That is near you
It hurts because you didn’t say Goodbye
But I remember..
The last words you said were..
I Love You
Smiling is not my reality,
I smile to fool this world.
This is how I pretend to be,
But this is not the truth of my life.
Drowning in a flood of tears,
But tears are my destiny.
My vision a blur as I fulfill,
And this is how I meant to be.
As you regarded suicide as sin,
I am not against you my heart is pure.
Fate is mocking with an evil,
Grin, surrounded in a blackness so deep.
I walk, I see, but survive no more,
I am dead inside, in darkness I weep.
You know I love you like ever before,
Forgive me as in my grave I lay.
Free me of this pain and let me die,
I just can’t bare it any more.
Life is a prison,
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.
If you fall it don’t matter,
There’s no one to care.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Hide the pain,
Carry on ,
Routine is the key.
Don’t let on that you’re not,
What you’re pretending to be.
Whenever any thought came into my mind,
I wrote it on the last page of my notebook.
Whenever the lectures were boring,
I played games, used to draw pictures
on the last page of my notebook.
When I was angry with anyone and
wanted to flood my anger,
I used the last page of my notebook.
When I discovered I was in love with him,
I shared my thoughts with the
Last page of my notebook.
When I was really wrong,
And I wanted to confess it to someone,
I told about it to last page of my notebook.
When I wanted not to forget some points taught by my teacher
I discussed it with the last page of my notebook.
Still many things are there to be written
on the last page of my notebook.
I waited a lifetime to say I love you
If in this lifetime,
I wont get to have you,
I’ll make sure that if
I meet you in my next life
I wont have to think twice on saying that
“I waited a lifetime to say I love you….”
If You Love Me Like You Told Me
Please Be Careful With My Heart.
You Can Take It
Just Don’t Break It
Or My World Would Fall Apart.
To see you is what my eyes long for,
to touch you is what my body longs for,
But to love you,
My heart has done already for a long time.
If, each time I thought of you were a flower,
I could walk in my garden forever.
The moment I looked in your eyes I fell in love.
Every time I look I fall in love again.
I’ve looked so many times,
And have gathered so much love.
I have so much to carry with me
I don’t know what to do
Loving you is what I’ve learned so easily.
Trying to forget you is the last thing
I could possibly learn
Because I’m deeply in love with you.
I would give up everything
For one moment with you;
For one moment
Is better than a lifetime of not knowing you
I never loved you more
Because I never loved you less,
I don’t love you now because
I will love you always,
I don’t just love you because
I love you more than “I love you” can say …
You justify my existence …
If I have not known you,
I wouldn’t have lived,
If I die with out knowing you,
I wouldn’t die because I didn’t live at all …
The sun can have the sky and it wouldn’t matter.
The night can have its stars and i wouldn’t care.
Tomorrow can be majestic yet remain empty,
For it simply wouldn’t matter without you there.
If she is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
The only thing you think of when you’re awake,
And the last thing you think of before you go to bed,
Then she is really somebody special.
Love is not measured by how you feel,
But how you make the other person feel.
As Part Of You Has Grown In Me,
Together Forever Shall We Be,
Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart
I don’t want to lose this feeling.
If I could choose a place to die,
It would be in your arms.
I never knew what love was all
About until I started looking at you;
No one ever tried to tell or show me,
So I finally figured it out for myself.
What you need is someone
Who without you can’t breathe.
Romantic love is an illusion.
Most of us discover this truth
At the end of a love affair or else
Dreams only last one
Night but love can last forever.
I’m so in love with you
and this spell can’t be broken
I can’t forget all our memories
and all the words we’ve spoken.
Take away my sight
and my sanity too
but please don’t ask my heart
to take away you.
There’s been so many nights
I’ve laid awake and cried
wondering why we
aren’t side by side.
I’ve had rough days before
but nothing compares to this
all I can do is cry
and ache for your kiss.
Please don’t let another
take my place
don’t remove my love
don’t forget my face.
I love and adore you
to leave you I’d never
it’ll all work out baby
we can’t stay apart forever.
Will I ever be the same again?
Will I ever get past all these lies?
Will I ever open my eyes?
And see that you are nothing
Nothing but lies
Will I ever be able to cry again?
Will I ever be able to love again?
Will I ever be able to sing again?
Will I ever be free again?
Free of your lies
Free of your seduction
Free of your lips
Pressed against my unwilling lips…
Do you want to seduce me
Into doing what you may?
Nay, I say, I will not fall
I will not let you take over
While I lose it all?
And when I am lying on the floor
Screaming for air
Losing my mind
And crying out for help
You just stand there smiling
Do you enjoy my pain?