Smiling is not my reality,
I smile to fool this world.
This is how I pretend to be,
But this is not the truth of my life.
Drowning in a flood of tears,
But tears are my destiny.
My vision a blur as I fulfill,
And this is how I meant to be.
As you regarded suicide as sin,
I am not against you my heart is pure.
Fate is mocking with an evil,
Grin, surrounded in a blackness so deep.
I walk, I see, but survive no more,
I am dead inside, in darkness I weep.
You know I love you like ever before,
Forgive me as in my grave I lay.
Free me of this pain and let me die,
I just can’t bare it any more.